at first, i'll admit it, i was offended. i mean, excuussee me i get along just fine thank you very much. but then i started thinking about it. sometimes it does suck. i mean, being best friends with three girls in pretty awesome relationships does make me jealous. (ayyo, don't you dare start pitying me now) seeing guaranteed cuddle buddies and the random nose kisses is kind of awkward. i laugh and make fun when you disappear for hours on end in your rooms (SHIT SHIT SHIT :D and the pants down buckle off episode anyone? :D) but i kind of wish it was me that could come back with that shit eating grin and you guys NOT be like "oh, so who was it this time?". plus liquid's vomit inducing cutesy post was SO CLEARLY ABOUT HER THING it made me smile to think she has something like that, but also sad because i feel like im missing out on something vital. i guess i'm pretty envious of that stable emotional connection you guys have. it's an amazing thing, im sure you know it already, but cherish it.
at the same being single ROCKS.
i don't get bored. if one guy is a dick to me then there's always another one right behind him. I can make out with whoever the fuck i want. i don't get that weird disease that the others seem to have where you don't notice the hot guys all around you (OR DIAGONAL FROM YOU IN CLASS cough cough heat cough cough). i am not beholden to ANYONE. every single part of me is my own. i don't have to tell anyone where i am, where im going, who im with, why im there and not here. i don't have to care about you or your day at all. i can be completely selfish and THAT is a beautiful feeling. i love being able to imagine all the possibilities with multiple people. i love falling for three people at once and getting that twisty fluttery feeling. the first crush, the anonymous amor. that really good looking sweet funny smart guy in my english class and the hot guy from chem and that random guy i see EVERYWHERE on campus (if you're reading this i swear im not stalking you) there's just so many awesomely wonderful boys out there and dreaming about the potential is almost more fun than getting to know them.
sometimes i know im not mature enough to be in a relationship, honestly im probably not mature enough to have friends, but then other times i want what you guys have. it's a weird thing i suppose to want both. i guess that's why i always fall into half relationships, nothing official, but just enough to keep me satisfied. we'll see how long that lasts but as of right now
i am single, hear me roar
(if you listen closely, you'll hear a faint BAKAWK :D)
SWIFT
says love love love everyone around you.
peace love and EASY MAC.
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