Yes today was the snow day. Seems like everyone had fun. I didn't. It was possibly THE worst days I've had in a long time. And I mean a long time. It started off miserable so I never really had any hope, but I didn't really expect it to get worse, did I?
So first of all, I usually don't have class on fridays. This friday I did. damn. what a shitty start. Then. I got up and worked for a few hours and dragged myself to class. By the time i got out it was snowing and an inch had already accumulated on the ground. Good? Bad. I had forgotten my scarf so all the snowflakes were going down my shirt. It was freezing. Not to mention snow pounding down on my loose hair, which was the smacked fervently thanks to the vicious wind, meant that I had wet hair slapping me as I walked all the way back from the management building back to my room. Of course there would be no buses. It sucked.
Once in my room, I started cleaning. yes, cleaning. I cleaned for 2 hours until my dad came and picked me up. Throughout those two hours, I listened to people shrieking with joy as they made snow angels and had snowball fights right outside my room. I could see them outside my window, but I couldn't just go join them.
I was alone. Have you ever felt so alone that you hate everyone for not being alone? that was me. All my friends had either gone home or were ignoring my calls because they were "doing cs." So I really had no one to enjoy this winter wonderland with. I just watched enviously. The one hour i spent with my dad in his car today was possibly the best one hour of this whole day. He's a close friend of mine and he enjoys listening to me blabber on and on. And since he just let me blabber, I enjoyed it too. We got home and I saw the garage open and our lawn untouched and I was sure that my brother had just been waiting for me to come home so we could ruin our yard's perfect blanket of snow.
i was wrong.
He was at a friend's house and didn't return until well after dark. Well after the snow had stopped falling. I was alone. and I didn't get to play in the snow.
As if my day could not get ANY worse, I got into a huge argument with my mom. This argument has been a long time coming but basically I hate her. I don't really hate her. I love her a lot. But I was obnoxious to her and in return she was obnoxious to me and the only reason I was obnoxious was because she had been really irritating and apparently she was only irritating because we were having communication issues. but the point is. I hate her. I don't really hate her. I love her a lot.
Well anyhow, i don't think i've sobbed this much in a while. but it's just one of those days. I tried to call the boyfriend to talk...he usually makes it better. He was busy though--
making a snowman.
As I lie in bed, the only thing i can say is thank God that day is over. It sucked.
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